blEH!!!!!

so yeah...yay for the summer.

i'm pretty much going to be working, swimming with retha....or going to planet lan...
shwuateva...it's all good. i'll be out of the house most of the time. yeah...planet lan. it's pretty kewl. just go in there and play games or watch family guy.

haven't really done much since the last time i posted...46548465 years ago...ummm...i went to san angelo with chris on mother's day. that was fun. we took lots of stupid pictures...other than that i've just hung out with luke, retha, and chris...the usual. oh...i went to that show at the bean counter on the last day of skewl....i jumped in the pit and i got hit by boys...it was so awesome!

ugg...retha said she's taking me to see some shows this summer...i hope am goes too. i miss that girl.

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bi polar

i really think i am....i'm fine one minute, then something happens and i get in a really shitty mood. it angers me  because i know i uspet some people...mainly retha. grrr...i don't know what my problem is. i'm happy...but i'm not content. that is really important to me. i just want to be happy and not have a care in the world. but that's the problem...caring. i feel like i'm not really cared about. like no one notices me. i know it's stupid, but i can't help how i feel. i found out something really upsetting yesterday. i should be over this certain situation...but it's stuck in my head. it's like a bad record playing over and over. i'm stuck on it becuase it seems like anyone i care about that i think cares about me, leaves me. that feeling will probably never go away. i wish that i could throw my hands up and say that i don't give a fuck anymore....shit...

but whatever....spring break is already so much better than last year. i've hung out with shiriyth and amber and josh, austin, some other people...it's been great. i can't wait till friday. saint patty's day and stormi's b-day party...

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blAh

valentine's day: Gay...as to be expected...

me and retha were off this weekend...so we just chilled & shwuatnot...

got to see some people i haven't been able to see in awhile...so it was kewl. had some fun times this weekend.
for example: final destination 3...a few words that would sum it up would be "FUCKING AWESOME AS HELL!!"

"there is someone walking behind you, watching your footsteps"

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fuckin a...

so yeah....valentine's day is coming up..how fucking exciting...

i have no idea what to write, i just know it's been forever since i've posted. blah.....so yeah...to all u people who are like "what's wrong" i'll tell you honestly..nothing. i mean nothing's wrong but nothings really going right & shwuatnot..i'm sort of just floating along...

RAWR...so ummm...like 8 months left till i turn 18! fuck yes...i want to move out, but i know that my rents won't let me till i graduate. damn, why would they want me out, i mean, shit...i do all the houswork and shit. i mean..i'm a fucking slave. my opinions don't mean shit to them...i'm just a puppet to do whatever the fuck they say...ok..i'm sorry about the ranting...it's just i need to get it off my chest. i know that it's not that bad, but i'm sick of people treating me like my opinion doesn't matter. like everything i feel is insignificant. putting me down so that they can act all "hardcore"...just because they know that i won't defend myself.

ok...i'm done...i don't really like putting the emo "MY LIFE SUx" post on here..but shwuateva...

i luv u retha!!!!

& i miss u austin!!!

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upDatE

ok..........so it's 2006 and so far it's pretty fucking gay....I went out with this guy who ended up being a complete asshole...but hey...i someone on new years even though i was in dallas away from all u kewl kids! i fell down a pair of stairs that night...it was aWesOmE!!!!!

ummmerz....retha got her car back, and that's kewl..nikki stayed the week with me...and it got a little ugly...shwuateva...it's all good now...

i chilled with kc, chia, and danielle today...it was cool...whateva....2006 sux some major ass so far...but hell, i'll be 18 in 9 months...so at one good thing will happen....my bro and his kids might be moving in ::stabs in eye::

grrrrrr.........